Your Life Sucks
I am not going to tell you who I am or why I created the peculiar, upsetting thing that lies before you. Not yet. But I can say that like many of you—like all of us at some point in our lives—I am about to reach a terrifying crossroads. One that will completely disrupt the existing trajectory of my life, that will require immense wisdom, bravery, and agency, and for which I am not prepared in the slightest. You see, I am about to begin my life.
This project was thus conceived of the kind of indescribable yet awe-inspiring revelation brought on by young adulthood, and like any young adult thought, what it lacks in nuance it makes up for in attitude: life sucks.
It is important to note here that when I say “life,” I am not just referring to its most basic definition, that is, the span of time that one’s body is considered biologically alive. In fact, I cannot speak of only this, because this version of life, one in which we are satisfied with our beating hearts and full bellies and are free to enjoy every day—every moment—as we please has been completely bastardized. What we understand as life has far more to do with the people, places, and institutions with which we interact and which come to define our jobs, lifestyles, families, relationships, and even ourselves.
Our lives are hectic, busy, frustrating, confusing, stressful, tiresome. Nearly every waking moment must be penciled-in by things we must do or interactions we must have. Our time on this Earth is not ours to use as we please but, rather, a resource that is drained from each of us and given away to others in forms we cannot see and do not need: money, economy, country, society. We put up with it because we have to, and we tell ourselves it is all worth it, as long as we get to enjoy the occasional good day or bit of praise. We pretend a nice dinner, a new outfit, or a chance to “go out” can truly interrupt the shallow, dissatisfying tedium we are forced to endure, but it cannot.
If you are not on board by now, don’t worry. You don’t have to be. The goal of this project is to be honest with you, to stop pretending. Unlike the rest of the world, I want to tell you the truth about your life, as candidly and bitterly as I have done for myself. I am going to break it all down for you, piece by piece, until you can realize the sheer bleakness of it all.
There is a silver lining, but I am afraid I cannot reveal that to you just yet. Just know that there is one, and in due time, it will be presented to you to appease your existential anguish.
In the meantime, though, and like all things in this life, all you can do is begin.